I will lose my love story because of age

I am Junaid, I too had a love story which will end only because of  our age difference. I am working in the Bank. I will become permanent soon. It was the day when new staff came into our bank. There was a cute girl named Mehvish. She seems too different from others. It was love at first sight. It was magical,my heart beat increased, mouth dry, want to talk but was not able to talk off my eyes from her. She is working with me, I can see her anytime but still I missed her. I went into the hall many times only to see her. She sometimes come near my disk. My face become red. We started talking on Phone. She used to call me sir in cute voice. She is beautiful and I can't take off my eyes from her. Her white shalwar kameez in which she was looking most beautiful then usual. I proposed her, she smiled  didn't reply. I knew she too love me. Talking on Phone was our habit now. We want to talk to eachother even we see each other thousands of time in the bank. Whenever she comes late I used to go through hall many times. Sometimes she didn't come to bank,that day seems like a year to spend. I felt like I can't live without her now anymore. I don't know when my love grow this much strong for her. She become my world, I don't feel shy to share anything with her weather it is good or bad. We want outside together without thinking about people around us. Meeting eachother become our primary focus. We don't care that we are lieing to our family. For being with each other,we were ready to ask anything at home. I used to drop her at her place sometimes. 

Life Is too hard so how this strong can go this much smooth. Their is the big problem that is age difference. actually it's not age it's mentality of people around us.Mehvish lives in joint family and before her marriage their are 3 more siblings to get married. I want to send my parents to your home Mehvish but I can't send because it's not that much simple. She is really small then me so how can I marry her. I had to wait for 5-6 years but my family want me to marry in a year or so. I am afraid of losing her but both of us are bound to our family and age too. My parents will not let me wait and her family will not let her marry soon. I always dream her on my side holding my hand. Love is blind and it makes you cry the tears of blood. Before love can't this thing come into our mind. Can't our heart stop loving this person when it  knows that will be better for us to get away from each other but we are not doing it. We try to spend more time together. Talking to each other whole night, sharing everything with each other, forgetting about our suitation. We love each other but we don't care tomorrow we will be married or not. But world had to think about it. Why can't this world let us be together.we don't care who among us will die ist or who will take stick in hands ist. We don't care after years one will be old and other will be young. What we care is that we love each other and we will be young even at the age of 70 because we love each other. Our heart dies when our beloved dies. Who will teach this world that love is a feeling, it doesn't depend on age, colour , relegion. My love story will end only because of age....

Why it is this much tough?...

Something inside me want to write. There is something in my mind which is too disturbing. I am in a deep thinking what I want to do is to write, write what I don't know? There is a storm inside me which want a answer. This world is really a battle. We had to fight it. I never give shit to the rights of girls, protection of girls Never but I always feel boys need justices. Girls are blessing of Allah. Do really a girl is a blessing for her family, relatives, friends, neighbours, husband. I don't know from my  childhood only I saw parents become unhappy on girls brith? Do they don't want girls, but why ? They know girl child is better than boy child but still they are afraid to have a girl why? 

In all her life she had to be really careful. From childhood only one thing she had to listen that be  careful while doing this thing or that things. Famous dialogue," luk hind ghari chi gasun ". When a girl is pregnant she never want a girl child why? Is girl any devil? Did mother's also start differencing between girl child and a boy child? I always heard mother don't care what my children is. Why always birth of girl close mouths of parents? Before birth they start thinking about their marriage. Is marriage this much important even before birth it is decided? Girls had to think about people what if my clothes are not liked by people,they will comment on my family. Boys have a meeting time everyday in which they talk about girls on  shops. Our friends don't know what we wear but all those boys know. All boys sitting their have a sister but still they talk about others sister's.  They have their own life so they can talk about anyone. All boys want to talk to girls whole night forgetting others all like the same. If girls went outside they had to ask for permission. We had to give justification where we were? We cannot talk to boys. If we have phone then they had to check our messages, photos why don't we belong to this world? Why this all comes into their minds? It's all because of sitting on those shop's. Now comes the time of marriage. Girl can't choose his partner. If she did then she had to face alot of problems. If father's phone  is using by boy then their is no problem but if the same phone is present in girls hand then their are numbers of many people. Every bloody thing starts at home if your family trust you no matter what other's said. 

Molvis also speak that girls watch TV serials, listen music,wear short clothes. He also talks like everything wrong is done by girls. Don't boys use mobile, Play games, listen music, watch sexual vedios. Oh please keep your mouth shut if you can't talk what quran said. 

At the time of marriage girls family had to please boys family. Even if girls family have done nothing wrong still they had to say sorry. Why girls family are afraid of breaking the marriage. Only boys doesn't live in this world,girls also live. So why only girls get effect by breaking the marriage. Why marriage is this much tough? 

I don't want anyone to protect me, I can protect myself. Why after reading this much still boys family is over girls family. All happen because we all humans don't do what we read, we all do what we see..

Talk to that part of me.

I was once again lost in my deep thoughts. There was a voice coming from where I don't know. It was voice of some girl, talking to me. Their was no one ,no face nothing. I was afraid with that who was talking to me in this louder voice. I was thinking who else is able to listen it. The voice was too strong even a big room seemed small. I was sitting in corner of this room. Afraid if anyone will be listening. What will I do, how will I prove myself. What can I do. I was trying to runaway from this voice. Collecting all my courage and I talked to this unknown voice whose voice it was I don't know. She didn't ask about my health,life, career. What she said was " why you let others rule you". I was confused how she knew those things which I even didn't shared with myself. She knew all my secrets. I was afraid what if someone will be listening to it. I told this voice can you please talk slowly no one here knows about it In my mind because my throat was dry and my tounge was frozen. I was not able to breathe properly. No one was looking at me as usual. She said,"do you still think they care for you ". Weather you are crying or dieing they didn't mind. Why can't you live for yourself. Why can't you sleep according you want. Eat what you want,wear what you like even if others hate it, why don't you runaway to live your dreams, why you care about those who don't care for you. My eyes filled with tears, I quickly got up and want to the wash room. I cried alot and now the voice disappear. Whole night I was thinking about that voice and then when I felt asleep I even didn't remember when?  That day I got a friend whom my family can't curse or abuse. I can talk to her when I want. she listen to my every nonsence talk. I can talk to her everything good, bad,dirty, romantic,awful voice. Sometimes I wonder why me but then I realise it's present in everyone,what we need is ears to listen to them. Now when ever I talk to her I don't fear because I know my secrets are safe. Thank you so so much. 

Relationship

Relationship of siblings...

World's most beautiful relationship is brother-sister relationship.😀😀😀

After our parents the one who is our own blood relation that is only and only this relationship which even we want to finish but this will never end. I always think where are those days when we used to fight alot, care for each other, fight for parents love,why parents brought red from him and bule for me parents love him/her more then me. Playing whole day but ever sibling contain a spy who used to tell everything to mother even sometimes to papa also. That was the time we used to plug each other's hairs. 

Elder brother or sister are always separate from us... When their friends used to come home they even did't let us to come into the room but if someday by chance we used to stay there then that time they used to praise us so that we should not disclose their secret infront of parents...   Wow that fight with my siblings for giving me batting if ever there didn't gave me batting, I took the bat-ball and sit somewhere and said I will not give my bat ball to anyone till I will not play how much I want,then they agree and we start playing. After that we get out still we want to play but this time they stop playing and I had to hand over the bat. I get did't understand why we mostly all want to do batting in childhood? If you have some younger brother or sister then you have felt it really offen that maybe your parents brought you from road, all middle children's feel it( Pain of middle child). Oh my God those days, I am telling you we all tell someone outside home, oh ur my brother but let me tell you one thing your blood relation is the only relation from whom your actually saying brother-sister relationship.

I wish that times relationship should be present today. We all forget each other. Nowadays a sister is more comfortable with others then his own brother. I say many girls sharing their secret with others whom they even don't know but now they are more comfortable with then. Why what is the reason? Why we all get away for our blood relation? I say girls telling their neighbours boy  to recharge their  phone. Why can't a sister tell his own brother that she loves someone or she wants someone with who she can share her secret. In girls life except his their are many things to share like she is feeling low when she is insulted in class or she is not comfortable in mensuration while walking in public. Now you think how can a girl talks about her periods with his brother array yarr why not! After marriage man know when her wife have periods. Why can't a girl tells his brother directly. Why can't a brother helps her sister to do work in these days. It's a far thing to do, I don't know why boys can't recharge their sisters mobile. Yet I did not understand what can I girl'do on mobile. Why always male ego comes in between this. I believe give complete freedom they will not do mistake, "more u stop, more wrong they will do."Think over it why we get away from our siblings🤔 🤔🤔??? 

Boys feel if our friend come to our home what will happen I have sister'at my home 😟if my sister liikes my friend? Let me tell you one thing all girls will tell your sister that oh he is ur boy? Get us his number! But never a boy friend will tell you oh is she ur sister?get us her number! ""Actually boys friend say she is your sister means she is our sister..."" How comes this difference between  🧒⚡🧑 siblings?

I say people around who even don't have time for their siblings ⏳to talk.

Brothers giving money 💸 to their sisters but don't have time to go with them. They took their friends with them but when she fells in bad company then said she was walking with this girl ,that girl. Hell with u when you don't have time then she needs someone to come with him. When we do something wrong then the result comes wrong rather no-one want to become bad only condition make them...

I wish we all liive that time of our childhood once again with the help of God. I am telling you no one is bad only conditions are responsible for it...

Hope we all try to find it out why our earlier relationship finish why we all want an outsider person in  our life.

Why we all are alone in the big family 😔😔😔

Papa let me ask you something

Papa Let me ask you something

I have a best father who have everything in his life money,fame, respect. But I never become your good child. Sorry Papa You always face problems because of me.I never made u proud on me. May be you always feel this child of mine will do nothing in her life that is why you never wasted your time and money on me. I want ask u one day, why Papa you found me different from other kids? Don't I belong to you? Don't I am good enough to talk to you, understand you. I saw many parents taking their kids with them, am I this much ugly that you can't even stand with me? Please Papa you speak the truth,why you are tololating me? Why don't you throw me out of your home? Please don't think about relatives or neighbours, just do what you want to do. Sorry Papa I always put your head down. I was never able to become like Bashir's daughter or Mehraj' s son. I always want to be myself. I really tried so hard to make you proud but I am failing really badly. But Papa I wise u had ever tried to find a good daughter in me. I always think I will pay your all money back but sorry Papa I can't pay ur hate back. Sorry Papa I wasted your money. Do you know Papa outside home people think I am your best kid but I will feel happy if you will tell me that, " I am proud on you, no matter u are unlike others but still I am proud to have a daughter  like you ". Papa I wish you will understand that all fingers are not same. Thank you Papa for making me realise that parents only love ranker. I wish you have ever tried to make me comfortable. I will love to share my secrets with you, I wish you understand my problems, you will come to ask me whether I am able to sleep at night, did any one is doing wrong with me, this all comes in care nai Papa. I think you never think beyond your money. Did you ever asked me whether you did it or not. At last I can only say one thing Papa,"you deserve a better daughter  but let me tell you how much I can love you no other person can do it".

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