We were friends!

Still remember our ist meeting, when we fought. Ist day we fought with each other, I can't believe we became friends. You were told to sit with me. How we become

friends I don't know but I know that we were close friends. 

You remember 50 50,we used to ate it because their were alot of biscuits. Shopkeepers remember that what we were going to brought because we have only ten rupees to ate.

You faced alot because of me, Sorry yaar.i remember when my family curses you but still I followed you and got my forgiveness. After that day we never talked on phone freely. 

The time spend with you was life's beautiful time,thankyou. I know our luck is too bad which never left us. Wherever we went outside, things got wrong, that overcooked food, ice cream in rain and that tasteless sandwich .

You are ist person because of whom I got jealous. I always told you to make friends not royal but loyal. When you found those friends at tuition, you used to spend a lot of time with them. I started to ignore you, those day we were one and you felt that I got jealous. 

I am not like those who keep asking you about your life. For me your name is enough. I never asked you about your personal life because I believe when their is trust we share everything with each other.

You remember when we used to bring oreo and 50 50 we used to ate oreo because there are less biscuits and share 50 50 with everyone. Once when fiza send us to brought samosa and we wasted our classes 10minites for it. We were crazy, are not we? We faced alot those days but we didn't give up. 

I loved you yaar and you don't know I can kill for you and I can die for you. we will not let someone talk about it or raise finger on our friendship . If you ever need my help I am always there.

I am not able to look at you,when I look at you, all of a sudden I want to cry and never wanted to stop. You hated me deep inside. You gave my family a chance to raise finger on our friendship. You let them call you a fake friend which I never want. I don't know why don't you call me those days,when you know I become orphan. She was not only my grandmother she was my everything, father ,mother,teacher, supporter, friend...

Everything 

Do you know what my family always stopped me to meet you, talk to you but I never listened to them..

I know by calling or messaging someone we don't become friends but their words give us strength to fight our problems. When we are happy we miss our friends but when we are sad we need our friends shoulder to cry on. 

I will never leave you but sorry never expect I will look at you because I am hurt deep inside . 

I did many wrong things with you but I never let someone raise finger on our friendship. 

I wish I can change everything and make it better like before. I always miss you and I love you so very much.

Last time

Calling my name everywhere

Speaking about you,

Trying to believe them,

But failed to do that.

Last time when you opened eyes,

When I called your name.

Looking me from  top to bottom,

With peace of relief.

Closed your eyes forever.

Your body felt pale

Still feeling your breathing.

You will get up again.

Sitting in corner waiting,

You will open your eyes again

Everyone crying and screaming

Came near you to hold your hand,

Wanted to sleep with you,

Once again on your chest.

When they took you outside,

Never want to leave your hand

When they shouted at me,

Go outside,you are not allowed.

Sitting outside and trying to believe.

Put cold water on my head ,

To come out of the shock.

Someone called out who wanted to pour water.

Surrounding your pale body,

People cleaning and washing you.

Want to hug and kiss you,

But all stopping me to do it.

While kissing you water entered my mouth.

Made me feel you are not alive.

Wanted me to come with you.

Closed eyes till everyone returned.

Putting you into your dark home.

Body didn't support me anymore,

While writing this my arms give up.

Don't lose...

In our life we keep saying we will meet you next time, I will call you later but that time never comes. we never meet,we never talk ,what we listen at last the news of their death. We feel sad then we remember what we talk last time,those words remain with us forever but the regret why we don't give them time to talk or listen to them, what they want to tell us .I lose my love before sometime now I have regret why I keep myself away for her. Why don't I be with her when she needed me the most. Why I don't listen what she wanted to tell me, what she wanted to ask me. Now I regret but it's of no use became she is far far away from me. She can't listen what i want to say, I can't listen what she wants  to tell me. I will never keep some regret on myself. Don't leave someone because you want to go ahead in life. Rumi said" people can walk with you but they will not  walk  for you"so you why you mind to walk with people when you can keep going on your way even with that person.
Never let yourself fell in regret. Don't make yourself depending on memories, previous chatting , messages or audio recording. Don't wish,be with the people who are around. Talking with the people will not get you away from your goal , not even make you feel small perhaps you will get many things to learn from people around. Don't plan things let it happens according the universe because unplanned things are most beautiful and peaceful.. 
Don't wait for the news be the part of it. Don't think time will come again, you will be the same after years.  Everyday some people disappear from the planet. So don't say see you soon. When you have time use it don't think about future..  noone see that..